Posted by Kath
You may have noticed, there hasn’t been much action around here lately. I’m not really too sure why. I’ve been thinking about it a bit lately – as in, why haven’t I put more stories on the Blog? I’ve come up with a few ideas:
a) Life has been kind of “boring” lately. Which I totally love, don’t get me wrong. But seriously – who wants to read about the fact that this morning I got ready, piled the kids in the car, got the kids out of the car, dropped Jack at school, put the girls back in the car, went to the library at 9am, got the the girls out of the car, realised the library doesn’t open until 930am, got the girls back in the car, went to MOPS, got the girls back out of the car and so on. Yep, it’s boring hey.
b) I really don’t know who reads this stuff anyway? What started out as a way to communicate with people who might be interested in what we’re doing “mission” wise has probably morphed more into general life. Kind of a silly comment that – it really all should be intertwined. But I find myself thinking when considering a post – “I don’t know if my friends who aren’t really into God are going to get where I’m coming from on this one.” Either that or “I don’t know if perhaps the more conservative people supporting us in mission are going to appreciate this much honesty?”
c) In conversations with people, I sometimes just don’t say much at all for fear of not explaining myself properly. As I write that I realise that the fear is really that people won’t understand me and then not like what I’ve said (or won’t like me). I know that is stupid on a number of levels. There will be (or at least should be) times where people genuinely won’t like what I’ve said (thank God not every one has the same ideas I do). It’s really not very nice of me to assume that if I can’t communicate my ideas well enough, people will think badly of me. Although some past experiences have taught me otherwise, a lot of people probably just assume the best. And really, I shouldn’t care that much anyway.
So I’ll continue, warts and all and if it doesn’t come across well – assume the best, or pick me up on something or just stop reading 😉
And even more importantly seeing as proper relationships with real people face to face are way better than this – I will have a go at sharing my ideas more openly without caring so much that I haven’t fully explained the million and one things and 32 years that have led to them.